THRU YOU

pretty fuckin sick...
http://thru-you.com/

the CROWN JEWELS

So we're officially up and runnin, GET IN LADS! LDN's hottest new charity, "the Crown Jewels" in aid of prostate and testicular cancer officially begins from tonight.

this started a few weeks back over 10 too many beers. we really want to do something that will make a difference, and many of us have been very closely affected by cancer, and want to see something done about it. plus what a good thing to get involved in. hopefully as things progress we'll go from strength to strength and events will get bigger and better.

look out for the 17th april (saturday), the others will be hosted by us for the night, with live bands and plenty of drink. promises that it'll be a bangin night, only £3 entry peoples AND ABSOLUTELY ALL OF IT GOES TO CHARITY. EVERY PENNY WE MAKE WILL GO DIRECTLY TO THE INSTITUTE OF CANCER RESEARCH. so get on it, unless you really dont care....

Karaoke Project

So, final brief before the FMP, and we have to produce a video to accompany a predetermined song. Mine is a Joy Division song which I like, but have no real feeling towards. Also it's a dark song, and I'm not into that whole emosh drawing with pen and being depressed bullshit. I'd prefer a Michael Jackson number like this, and do a performance xD

I do need to get back into it. definately. bring with me the good weather and then wotch

This is what a Good night is about

To be honest, even though going out on the lash has its obvious advantages, and it's a good laugh goin out with a big group and havin plenty of crack (as in the jokes kind, although the vulgar defenition im not averse to), but it's the jam sessions with a couple mates over a few 6 for 5's that I really apreciate...

Sinister

Oil is a horrible sinister thing, for the fact that wars are started to gain control of it, becuase oil is money and power, and greed rules this world. So oil signifies greed, sinister in itself, and one of the seven deadly sins (SINister...?). You don't suppose that's where the word came from, something sinful? i dno.... its another idea to look into tho isn't it....

Sinister

What is a sinister thing? something we despise? something dangerous, that lurks in the dark? Rapists, tortureres, murderers, peodaphiles... they all seem pretty sinister. Tony Blair and George Bush are both pretty sinister. Anyone affiliated with the BNP... Something that slowly leeches into you, killing you from the inside, like a cancer, or cancer for that matter. That's a sinister thing. what sometimes seems to be the case is the sight of that thing or the image it portrays can be both sinister and beautiful at the same time. I mean this in the case of something like the atom bomb; It's one of the most sinister things in history, but at the same time the sight of that mushroom cloud, whilst knowing the destruction its causing, it looks so amazing and beautiful. On a smaller scale, smoking slowly kills those who inhale, but the way the smoke licks out of the cigarette and curls itself in the still air is so beautiful and majestic. Life is full of these juxtapositions...

passage from a book titled: 'the others'. i connected so much to this book

I became attached to train travel – to seeing the grimy backs of buildings along train lines, the fenced industry and hung laundry. I slept in train seats. I opted for the rear car, so that in long bends, in open country, I could look ahead and watch the engine pass particulars of the landscape. And in the interim between the engines passing of, say, a half fallen brick pumping station and my own passing of it, happiness inhabited my journey. It was like the feeling I had on station platforms sometimes just after sunrise, when no one else was around and no train was expected for an hour or more, and an express had just gone through at high speed a minute or so before, the passengers in it flashing past like kings, queens and jacks in a thumbed deck of cards, ephemeral as thoughts. I put down my reading when that happened and enjoyed the absence of the train’s noise, the silence of a station in the countryside. To be awake in the cool of morning on a bench near train tracks, hungry, with a little breeze blowing, and whatever book u were reading open in your lap, was a little like listening for something you thought you might have heard a moment before. I suppose you could say I felt the sweetness, then, of being alive and in good health. At the same time, my romantic spells were curtailed by the sight of garbage near the rails, or by a wandering dog raising a leg at the corner of a building. I just didn’t have the psychic wherewithal to incorporate these images into my affection for living; I let them dispirit me, as the heat of the day and the crowds on the trains dispirited me, most days, during the afternoon.

i dont have any of this XD

So playing football for National (we play in an inter style kit :D) I got clattered by someone from the other team, trying to show that hes older and tougher than my 19 year old, 6 foot 90kg frame. well turns out he was proved right, as he connected with my left flank. People thought i was doin a drogba, so i tried to carry on playing for the last 15 minutes. then i hobbled home, licked my wounds and woke up on monday with very red pee........ after a trip to the doctors and then a night in the hospital i got my scans, and that evening the prognosis was given. 'just minor bruising to your left kidney mr blair, nothing to worry about... but it is the only kidney you have.'

so now i need to keep extra care of that one, coz another injury like the one i got and that could be it for my little guy, and then hello to a dialysis machine. so no football for.... ever?

Graphic Score

So our latest project culminated with a 'musical' performance. The next stage is to produce a graphical score for the music piece, and publish a little book documenting the days spent making the instruments and performing. This is one of the scores I've designed. Whether or not it becomes the final remains to be seen but right now I feel it's a bit straight forward and based to heavily on a system that is widely used. It isn't as personal to me, which I think is the important thing. But at least I've made a start, which always seems to be the hardest thing.....